Thursday, May 3, 2012

I Wish I had More FAT Pictures!

I know I've mentioned this before, but I'm having the hardest time finding FAT pictures to share with not only you on this blog, but also to help myself reflect on how far I've come. I've spent some time the last several days going through old pictures and have come across some.  (One is a real doozy!) For the most part I tend to be still hiding behind everything and everyone in 99% of the pictures.
I was terrible about even taking "progression" pictures along the way. I have some, but they're not specific to any certain progress mark or months on my journey per say, just different occasions when pictures were taken.
 As crazy as it sounds, if I had to do it all over again, I'd get out the camera! My kids already think I'm the "camera queen" because I don't go very many places without taking a zillion pictures. It's just I was rarely in the pictures as I was either the one taking the pictures or didn't want to be seen in the pictures. Looking back I wish I had more of those "fat" pictures to ponder. Mostly because when I see the few that I do have they are shocking to me. They really pull and tug at something inside me and make me realize how unhappy and unhealthy I really was behind all that fat and skin. Was I really that big?! Then I smile as I study  pictures of myself now. I feel that sense of escape. The feeling that I'm not trapped anymore. That the burden has been lifted. I feel like I can breathe.  I feel like nothing is holding me back. That I can be who I've always wanted to be!

 

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10 comments:

  1. Gorgeous transformation! I totally understand where you are coming from - I still have my drivers license picture of my at 365 lbs. When I tell people I have lost 160lbs (with more to go!) I PROVE it by showing them that pic!
    :-)

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  2. I appreciate this post. I don't have a very good 'gauge' on what I look like until I end up seeing myself in a picture. The unfortunate result is that I stay away from cameras. :) It is interesting getting your perspective on this since you have reached your goal. I am struggling this week but your posts have really helped. Thank you!

    Tanya

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  3. I am just like you... have been the photographer most of my adult life to avoid the camera and, although I am not the success story you are- yet!, I know that I will regret it one day.

    Thanks for this post... it was enlightening!

    Make it a great day!

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  4. I have to agree, pics just help you feel proud of how far you have come! Luckily I tend to have quite a few fat pics floating around :) Thanks to a Mom who always thought I was beautiful no matter my size.

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  5. I am the same way hate those pic of me fat....cant wait til i have some skinny pics... treadmill 2 miles a day I will get there. thanks for the post you rock

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  6. Thanks for sharing your great transformation photos.
    though you look happy and cool in both of photos.

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  7. I am so proud of you. I have lost 55 pounds in the last year and a quarter, and have another 15 or so to lose. Lately I've just been having a hard time. I think when the weather gets warmer and I get outside more it will help. I know that is an excuse . . . but at the moment, that's all I've got. At least I'm not putting it back on. You, young lady look great and doesn't it feel better to have more energy and to try on clothes and they actually look and feel amazing. I find that I do not have many fat photos either . . . who wants their photo taken when they are not happy with themselves. Anyway, Bravo!!! I'm joining your followers and checking in from time to time. You are an encouragement. Thank you, Connie :)
    Please accept my invitation to visit and hopefully to follow my blog, as well. Have a great weekend, Connie :)

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  8. I know exactly what you mean. I have very few really "fat" pictures of myself. I think I could only wrangle together 3 for my before shots. There have to be more at my parent's house. When you're fat, you avoid the camera at all costs. At least I did. I guess it's because when I was at my heaviest, I had almost given up and resigned myself to always weighing 288. You have a very contagious smile. Every time I see a picture of you smiling into the camera, I smile back even though I know you can't see me:)

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  9. I'm the same way - I had lost 50 lbs 10 years ago - have a lot of those pictures, now I've gained that back and am working on getting it gone (for good) and when people post pictures of me at events on Facebook I look at them "you're camera is not working right, that can't be what I look like" (it's a good reality check though, now I know I need to make changes).

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  10. Your weight loss took about ten years off of you...Wonderful!

    p.s. On the subject...I wasn't ever afraid of the camera, even heavy, but I in general I have started getting into the photos more because I realized I wasn't in as many since I was the photographer. Then I thought, what if I died and all the pictures are of my kids and husband and they have nothing to remember me by?? Okay, that's dramatic, but it crossed my mind. I started getting more of me and of husband and I in pictures. Having kids who are older and able to take a photo now helps too. :)

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